depressed and broken...

quotefeeling:

“Sometimes you just have to be brave. You have to be strong. Sometimes you just can’t give in to weak thoughts. You have to beat down those devils that get inside your head and try to make you panic. You struggle along, putting one foot a little bit ahead of the other.”

— James Marsden

spiderman-lover:
“matt112830:
“sharplydressedtentacles:
“banesidhe:
“calming-tea:
“samrgarrett:
“ outofthecavern:
“ opiatevampire:
“ theworldisconfused:
“ In addition to essentially inventing the computer, Alan Turing also broke the German Enigma...

spiderman-lover:

matt112830:

sharplydressedtentacles:

banesidhe:

calming-tea:

samrgarrett:

outofthecavern:

opiatevampire:

theworldisconfused:

In addition to essentially inventing the computer, Alan Turing also broke the German Enigma Code during World War II which paved the way for the D-Day invasion. The man was a hyper-genius. I’ve read descriptions of his work by mathematical physicist Sir Roger Penrose. He’s been a hero of mine ever since.

The level of thought required to come up with the stuff he came up with is totally beyond my comprehension. I actually did not even know about his orientation until much later. He was prosecuted and ordered to undergo chemical castration. Soon thereafter, he committed suicide by eating a cyanide-laced apple.

The government forced him to take estrogen as a punishment (or “cure”?). He began to develop breasts and other side effects.

He committed suicide by biting into a cyanide laced apple. This is supposedly the inspiration for the name/logo of Apple computers.

omfg

omfg

and old Apple computers

the apple was a rainbow 

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Reblogging again because more people need to know about Turing dammit.

Whoa…

WOW!!!!…

Don’t ever hesitate. Reblog this. This should be in the tumblr laws. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

spiderman-lover:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

If you ever want to talk: My Tumblr ask is always open.

xans-and-vans:

maggiemayy:

aidashakur:

Once you become a certain age, it is your responsibility to unlearn behaviors that hinder your growth as a person.

Man I cannot stress this enough. The “this is how I am, take it or leave it” attitude is an act of immaturity. We all have toxic traits that we need to work on and as an adult it’s our responsibility to recognize the damage that they can do to the ones we love. We all need to put in more effort in becoming better individuals.

big facts

The fact that a part of me wants to kill myself just to see if you’d even fucking care is so fucked up to me.. Yet here I am thinking that if I did do it and you see my mom or my family or my friends posts about how I was gone that you’d regret your decision to just up and leave me like I was absolutely nothing..

nicolethedopefiendqueen:

Mental illness has a way of desensitizing you to your pain. You’re aware you’re broken and that it fucking hurts but you’ve become so accustomed to the tears of your heart that you can spend hours thinking of your own suicide almost casually.

Excerpt from my journal 12-3-19